the four right chords can make me cry

its a good thing that post didn't publish.

posted by beckyboo @ 12:49 AM 0 comments

mad rush to the finish. maybe i keep myself so busy because i can only work under pressure. otherwise i'm a major slacker who doesnt even bother to capitalize words, something for which someone might have gotten mildly annoyed with me recently. but finally submitted my essay, two heartbeats away from the stroke of midnight. well done.

no time to ponder the curiosities of life with you lately, i'm sorry. curiouser and curiouser, becky in wander land.

i really really really want to watch toni takitani, and will try my utmost to make time for it. really times 3. any murakami fans? if you can't come watch the film with me, you could make up for it by buying me a murakami book. heh. just a suggestion.

ah but friendships shouldn't be so purely activity based methinks. nevermind, its the thought that counts, so thank you for thinking of going to a movie with me even though you're not into this kinda stuff. why do i keep pre-empting disappointment? is disappointment pre-empted disappointment avoided?

i feel pre-empty.

posted by beckyboo @ 12:57 AM 0 comments

it was quite a good day in school.
but when i got home, my short fuse just blew. so frustrated and fed up and tired. like the beatles said:
its all too much
for me to take
all the world is birthday cake
so take a piece but not too much.
the more i learn
the less i know
and what i do
it's all too much
everywhere
its what you make
for us to take
it's all too much
irrelevant: ramen poodle

posted by beckyboo @ 1:47 AM 0 comments

mother to daughter: a piece of advice

that was the first time i've ever heard my mum say "mother-to-daughter". it was a terribly weird moment, my mother's been so absent in my life that i've always resented any sort of intervention. but it was something she felt was really important.

she told me to be strong, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually and not to rely on my husband to solve problems for me. she said that men would never be around, especially when you needed them the most. its something about the way they're built, an unquestionable fact of life almost.

i can't decide if it's simply because she was just pissed off with my dad again or its one of those sacred mother-daughter moments where i'm supposed to learn a deep truth about life.

all i managed to say was, "then don't get married, lor."

i never intended to rely on anyone anyway, though human relationships are all about mutual dependence. i don't like having to rely on my parents as it is, i yearn for financial freedom (which i guess is partially why i give so much tuition), freedom in the form of motorbikes and so forth.

eek, but i dislike these close encounters of the mum kind.

posted by beckyboo @ 8:55 AM 0 comments

I want to go MAAD on sunday.
Who wants to come?

posted by beckyboo @ 9:56 AM 0 comments